Have you ever loved someone so much it hurts? I though I knew love but until I had my babies I had no idea what true love was. I would do anything for my little monsters, even die.
On Wednesday C will have his Cochlear implant surgery and I am very excited at the prospect of him hearing one day but I am scared to death that something will go wrong and I will loose him. Is his hearing worth the risk? I am probably being silly and just overly emotional but I can't help to think, "What would I do if I lost him"?
C has always been my fighter, at birth out of the three he was the sickest. While still in the womb his placenta ruptured and after birth he had breathing issues due to breathing in amino fluid and blood. He was put on a ventilator for over a week and a half, and when C was about a week old we were told to prepare ourselves, due to an increase in toxins in his body it was becoming a possibility that he may have terminal liver disease. His toxin levels were so high he was actually green. Later we learned it wasn't liver disease but because his birth was so rough his liver just wasn't working fast enough and he had a lot of extra "slug" in his body.
Today, even with the hearing loss he is just as healthy as the other two. I don't know what time on Wednesday his surgery is but if you will say a special prayer for him I would greatly appreciate it.
C on the Vent in the NICU
Daddy Holding C's Passie
Even being over a month old C still had a green tone to his skin.
C With His Hearing Aids
19 hours ago